all heart

I am an all heart person and zero skill person. In my head, I would save the world if I could, I would make a difference if I could, but for that I would need skill, which i dont have. BU tI still have hope I will have somekind of skill... thats why I am still going thats why i keep going. I am gonna get there one day..

what kind of person should I be, what kind of character and values should i strive for.

1- persevere
2-self control
3-think twice before you say anything.
4-not to run away
5- be positive
6- to be diligent and always face the fight.
7-to be patient
8- to have a cool head
9- to be open to opinions

if you're sad, you're probably:

1) tired or
2) hungry

so next time instead of going on pondering about life and making a huge drama about what you should have done, whats missing and all that gibberish, just go to sleep. Take a shower, eat and pass out because its always a better day when you wake up rested and energized :)


and the trick is to keep going and never stopping.

enough of running away. I am going to stay and fight until i get in, until I become. I will not run away, not again.

friday

I just talked to jeff yesterday and heard a lot of good stories about kroea. It made me wanna go somewhere else again... Perhaps for my medschool is should move out again.. start from scratch again, get out of my confort zone, improve myself, be a stand up person..

dang dont know whats gonna happen - why i do all this and etc...

anyways, gotta stop blabbering and study again..


Peaace!!

15 min update

ok I just found out that I killed the Nutrition exam - YES, I have literally destroyed it. I guess, all that hours paid off. I felt pretty great about that.
besides that, I am finding myself really tired lately - as to why? i dont really know - perhaps is lack of aerobic exercise? hummm i dont know..

talking real

i am not sharing this blog with anyone but myself because I think that when You do share your thoughts, there is a risk that you owill not fully expose yourself. There is an invisible pressure, desire whatever you may call, to please others, to conform with the status quo, to not go against the flow. For this reason, I will keep my blog as virgin as possible. Eventually I'll share it but by then, I'll have nothing else to lose.

anyone can but most of us don't

I was just walking by a store one day and I saw one of those calendars with sayings and quotes. But interestinlgy, this one was different. Instead of those positive afirmative sayings this one would have very sad ones. At least I would say they were sad, and one of the saying on the first page was "Not everyone gets to become an austraunat". I kinda stopped at that moment and thought for a bit, and yes it is true what this saying is trying to convey. Not everyone make it eventhough we are taught we all can do it. Yes, we all can, but not everyone does, and thats okay. Making it to the top, achieving yor dream is not a requirement to be a happy person.

the biggest pleasures in life are found in small things :)

1. Stop worrying and regreting. Hold the moment, make use of your opportunities.
2. have a good relationship with your parents.
3. have enough to live, survive and eat with some friends :)
4. Learn - never stop learning
5. have friends around you and be nice to them :)
6. Do your best :)
7. Listen to some good music
8. Exercise. Go for a jog, work out, rock climb, snowboards,
9. play sports :)
10. choose a good team to cheer for - not the leafs, blue jays, or the raptors -
11. meet someone new today
12. learn an instrument -
13. wash your car. it will feel pretty good afterwards - same for room, house, washroom
14. take a hot shower during the cold winter
15. go swimming when its summer
16. Love someone, like someone
17. kiss, hug, smile :)
18.wake up early in the morning
19. read a good book
20. forgive others and yourself.
21. Travel :)
22. and again, carpe diem, seize the opportunity, make the best of every opportunity :)
23. help others ;)
24. thank God for everything, always.